Being with him should be for ''love''. Be blind and deaf. Forgiveness is a part of the deal. He'll say he won't do it again and he will be wrong, but you'll forgive him because there's nothing else to do. You'll follow him and you won't ask where are you going. If he tells you to jump off a cliff with him you'll do it. He's making the same mistakes all over again, the one after the other, but that's fine, you have hope. A hope that one day he will finally see. There is no light, you believe in his lies when you look straight into his eyes. The pain won't fade away. All you wanted was just to help him get through this sickness but instead you got sick like him. You follow his life until you see the last airplane leaves and leave you behind with nothing more than a memory of hope and forgiveness. 2012